SNOW

OK so its what APRIL?
OMG the snow NEVER goes away i swear. its like at work yesterday everyone was all like oh well its suppose to rain and then snow. But you know in North Dakota you just never know. SO as me and Ernesto are in the library studying. All of the sudden he gets up and is like "we have to ride" (aka-we need to leave...for those of u who dont understand him) so im like why it cant be that bad. NO it really was. So we go home some lames came over and "partied" yeah right our roomate has some of the the "lamest" parties with the "lamest" people soi went to bed early.

*morning*
I wake up and there is snow ALL over the place. (ANd its so funny because the other day our roomate's girlfriend was like "nesto why are u wearing your snow boots it's flip flop weather...its only 40 degrees." SHes crazy these people are crazy one day its -15 and the next day its 40 and they are out there wearing shorts.) Anyways so i have a little cold also. So we get out to the car and NO joke are car barley had any snow on it compared to the cars around us but...mine was the only one stuck so...nestos like ok now what...well HELLO you are big get out and push it. SO its starts moving as we are switching seats so i have to LEAP into the car so it dosent hit our neighbors car. Then we get stuck AGAIN. (without ernesto i dont kno what i would have done.) So we get it out again we get stuck. AGAIN so we check the main road make sure nobody is coming and we both just pushed it until we got to the road. It was very funny. This lil car stuck and a BIG black guy pushing it...me leaping. OH that was my exercise/excitment of the weekend.

Scared

Sometimes you just sit back and you realize how stupid or how naive you can be when you are in love. It is those times you realize that what you did to some people might look stupid but for every action there is an equal or opposite reaction? I'm so scared that i gave up my whole life for this boy an i sit back everyday and i worry so much about whether what I'm doing is making him happy or am i being a good girlfriend?
I sit back and i worry and i cry, and i don't sit back to realize how much he really does do for me. We might have just gone thru the toughest time any relationship can go thru, that fight that decides do i really want to be with this boy for the rest of my life, is this worth it. It was that conversation that makes you realize that you can go through anything with this person.
I know that i cannot live without him. I love him SO much and he does SO much for me. The times when we are away from each other, it kills both of us inside. But i know deep inside hes the only one for me. And i finally have come to trust him. I really trust him. I have always been resentful towards men. I feel as though they are untrustworthy. But i can trust him and i love him deeply and unconditionally. So he got me flowers...the first time EVER. And he said SORRY!